I spent years thinking my only issues with gender were social, which is kind of funny when you take into account the fact that the first real sign that this was going to be a thing for me was the absolute horror I felt regarding the approach of puberty.

On a scale from "fun" to "miserable", I think I would rate gender identity questions "unquestionably very interesting, and yet not so enjoyable that I would mind having an answer someday, or indeed, right now". If you feel similarly, much sympathy -- and sympathy also on the dysphoria and the less-than-comfortable psychiatrist situation.