Writing Complaints
Mar. 15th, 2019 08:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
violsvaI keep feeling like I could be done this fic (which we will call fic A, because there is never just one WIP) by the end of the month if I just decided to work at it (and maybe set up a goal tracker), but Life is in the process of happening and it's going to keep happening, so I can't just decide to spend a month on that. And in the meantime (mostly to distract from the aforementioned Life) I have started half a dozen WIPs, some of which are also at the "one week of concentrated effort and they'll be done" stage, but it's always much more tempting to just start another damn WIP instead of finishing them. And concentration may be a slight problem, now that I think about it.
And there's at least three other WIPs from before fic A that I could also be focusing on.
And I still think they're mostly really good ideas! So it's not that I don't want to work on them. Except that I am in one of those states where I am convinced that my present writing is much worse than it used to be. Despite the suspicion that in a month or so I will think my writing now was so much better than that future writing will be.
There is also the problem that right now I feel like anything I post needs some kind of Reason To Exist. God knows what reason would actually count as sufficient for the brainweasels, though.
The really annoying thing is that if I posted chapter-by-chapter I have like three fics I could post the first chapter of (and on Fic A it's more like the first 3+ chapters) with minimal editing. Except that I do not write linearly and any of these first chapters could change at any moment. And anyway I do not want to do that without a schedule, and cannot keep to a schedule. And while fic A's structure is pretty clear by now I don't actually know how long the others are (or whether they even need chapters).
But that means I have thousands and thousands of words of unposted fic burning a hole in my metaphorical pocket. Of my brain. Whatever that means.
ETA: And I just sewed buttons on a knitting project instead of writing, so that tells you how much is coming out of the word mines today.
And there's at least three other WIPs from before fic A that I could also be focusing on.
And I still think they're mostly really good ideas! So it's not that I don't want to work on them. Except that I am in one of those states where I am convinced that my present writing is much worse than it used to be. Despite the suspicion that in a month or so I will think my writing now was so much better than that future writing will be.
There is also the problem that right now I feel like anything I post needs some kind of Reason To Exist. God knows what reason would actually count as sufficient for the brainweasels, though.
The really annoying thing is that if I posted chapter-by-chapter I have like three fics I could post the first chapter of (and on Fic A it's more like the first 3+ chapters) with minimal editing. Except that I do not write linearly and any of these first chapters could change at any moment. And anyway I do not want to do that without a schedule, and cannot keep to a schedule. And while fic A's structure is pretty clear by now I don't actually know how long the others are (or whether they even need chapters).
But that means I have thousands and thousands of words of unposted fic burning a hole in my metaphorical pocket. Of my brain. Whatever that means.
ETA: And I just sewed buttons on a knitting project instead of writing, so that tells you how much is coming out of the word mines today.
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