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Priorities
Nov. 30th, 2018 02:26 pmI have two weeks left to the Yuletide deadline which means I do actually have to get on that. I may do it after the doctor’s appointment I’m about to leave for, or I may use the last day of November as my last day for a while on this fantasy AU.
It’s interesting, how writing prioritization happens. This month I have gotten huge amounts (by my standards) of writing done by just. Writing. First thing in the morning. Any other time means I have to deliberately refocus myself - which I can do, taking walks works, but is harder. And it’s harder to actually go, “Okay, if I want to do this thing, and I do, I have to switch over and do it, even if that means sitting in front of the Scrivener file staring at it for twenty minutes first.”
It’s possible now, because being on the right antidepressant is magic. But it’s easier to just write before my brain starts wandering off in different directions.
It’s just that that is easier if I’ve had the story floating around in my head already. Which the fantasy AU has been. And my Yuletide assignment, though I have an idea and an outline and it’s something I’m interested in, hasn’t been doing. So there is going to be a lot of staring at Scrivener files in my near future.
And then it’ll be the end of December, and I will have been travelling, and lots of things will have happened, and, I’m worried, possibly the fantasy AU will have walked right out of my head and I will have to work to get it back. Because right now this is a thing I am excited about and want to finish, but that was how I felt about last year’s Regency romance too and that’s still not done. Whereas if I kept at it I might, theoretically, have a very rough draft by Christmas.
Except also bears would eat me. (And I do want to have written this Yuletide fic.) So I can’t do that.
It’s interesting, how writing prioritization happens. This month I have gotten huge amounts (by my standards) of writing done by just. Writing. First thing in the morning. Any other time means I have to deliberately refocus myself - which I can do, taking walks works, but is harder. And it’s harder to actually go, “Okay, if I want to do this thing, and I do, I have to switch over and do it, even if that means sitting in front of the Scrivener file staring at it for twenty minutes first.”
It’s possible now, because being on the right antidepressant is magic. But it’s easier to just write before my brain starts wandering off in different directions.
It’s just that that is easier if I’ve had the story floating around in my head already. Which the fantasy AU has been. And my Yuletide assignment, though I have an idea and an outline and it’s something I’m interested in, hasn’t been doing. So there is going to be a lot of staring at Scrivener files in my near future.
And then it’ll be the end of December, and I will have been travelling, and lots of things will have happened, and, I’m worried, possibly the fantasy AU will have walked right out of my head and I will have to work to get it back. Because right now this is a thing I am excited about and want to finish, but that was how I felt about last year’s Regency romance too and that’s still not done. Whereas if I kept at it I might, theoretically, have a very rough draft by Christmas.
Except also bears would eat me. (And I do want to have written this Yuletide fic.) So I can’t do that.