violsva: A cartoon of a grey cat happily scribbling in a book (writing cat)
I wonder when cats started scratching the furniture.

No, really. Modern upholstery techniques are only a couple of centuries old. Carpets are much older, but also rarer. Most people, as I understand it, covered their floors with mats woven out of rushes or straw (if they covered them with anything). While that does sound like exactly the kind of thing a cat would love to tear up, I feel like if you’re making your floor coverings literally out of grass you’re probably not super concerned about durability?

Presumably there’d be wooden furniture to scratch, but none of my cats have ever bothered with the wooden furniture.

So, when did cats scratching the furniture become an actual problem? Who was the first person to find out that cats like scratching upholstery? (Who was the first cat to find out how awesome it is to tear up the upholstery?)
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I got my booster shot yesterday, which has knocked me out like all the others. My immune system would like to know wtf I'm playing at.

Current pandemic obsession is embroidery, and at the moment specifically needlelace (modern explanation, Victorian explanation), which is something like embroidery without the cloth. It's also much more manageable than bobbin lace; if I tried to set up a lace pillow covered in pins and things hanging from strings around Pepper terrible things would happen.

I have been throwing myself into that with all the enthusiasm of someone who is avoiding preparing for the new semester and also has a bunch of Agatha Christie audiobooks on Libby, but in the interests of avoiding eyestrain, and also because I just had a shower and am now utterly out of energy, have a meme.

AO3 Averages Meme )
violsva: Clint Barton and Kate Bishop shooting together, covered in bandages, from the end of Matt Fraction's Hawkeye (hawkeyes)
So I have been working on this diploma since slightly before the pandemic and already it looks like it will take a least a year longer than I hoped it would take when I started

and I really really dislike virtual classes and even more labs

and I have mostly just been pushing through it and pushing through it and pushing through it for the sake of an imagined future that will get me out of the background environment through which I am pushing

and part of that is working on my resumé and job prospects etc. etc. for co-op learning which I have been putting off because uuuuggggggggghhhhhhhhh.

But I did some of that last weekend, because [personal profile] consultingpiskies was here and she is very helpful. And part of that was going to the websites of about twenty different recycling organizations and looking up what they are or might be hiring for and how to contact them and so on.

And realizing in the process that these organizations are actually, immediately helping with The State Of The World right now, because of ideals but also because that’s just what they do. And that there are jobs with them that I am qualified for right now, let alone two years from now.

And I feel much more like I have a goal again, and it’s so nice.
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I can't speak for how they're treating faculty and staff (my program's student advisor seems extremely overwhelmed, but that may not be new), but at least in terms of interaction with students my college's conduct during the pandemic has been exemplary. Primarily, we get clear communication, a full semester in advance, how classes are going to work. (That is, since May - it's not like they could have given us a semester's notice for summer classes.)

Almost everything has been online and the campus is almost entirely locked down. This has the negative effect that more of the cost is put on the students, who have to buy lab equipment for themselves that would otherwise be provided on campus, but for me it's still well within the range of my OSAP grants.

On a less systemic level, every professor I've asked for an extension has immediately said "Yes, of course, no, I don't need to see a note," which has been nice.

That said, this is a technical college, and there are in fact some programs, like, for example, Aviation, that cannot be taught entirely virtually. So I have one in-person electronics lab course this semester. Due to failures of preparation and communication on the part of the provincial government, they had to add a bunch of sections after students had already signed up, with the result that my lab is on Sunday afternoons and only has nine other people in it. And then a 2km walk home in January because it's not really worth taking public transit right now.

The first couple labs were very straightforward "Have you forgotten how circuits work in the last ten months" exercises, but this week we were doing something slightly more complicated and I got to spend almost two hours cheerfully doing science in a space made for the purpose and with no interruptions. It was great.
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So [personal profile] james was commenting that they weren't doing any New Year's post things because it didn't actually feel like a change to them, because they didn't get a break or any time off after Christmas. This year, despite having much less Christmas than usual (usually I have four or five Christmases) I have much more of a break than usual, as I'm under mandatory quarantine until the 11th (not a cause for concern, everyone's healthy so far). Which is also the first day of online classes, the schedule having been delayed a week.

So I could use this time for ... I don't know, something, but on the other hand lots of empty time does not in fact lend itself to productivity. I have now done most of my standard New Year's bookkeeping - end-of-month budget file, end-of-term things, shifting work schedules, book list statistics. I'm just thinking that I could use this time for [community profile] snowflake_challenge or something.

I love you all, and I enjoy having online friendships, but in my head they need a level of continued interaction to remain "active" that I don't usually have the energy for unless I have basically no other social outlet.

So I will go read the [community profile] snowflake_challenge guidelines and then think about it while I go walk around the backyard, that being the maximum exercise I am permitted at this time. (I am enormously grateful for the privilege of having a backyard right now, I have to say.)
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It's reasonable; I was thinking last night, when I remembered that oh, yes, we know what's causing the recent physical issues, that I have a lot of very reasonable causes of stress, and then I remembered two more really obvious ones this morning, but I'm so tired. And there are neat things that I can do or have been doing, but also there are school things.

And school things were so much easier when I was just straightforwardly in a room where I had nothing to do except make circuits for two hours. I have ideas to rearrange things so I can do this more easily at home, but, yeah. Tired.

And one day off a week, unless someone in government realizes that possibly we should actually do something about skyrocketing case rates.

And when Canadian elections are coming up I have a habit of making nice informative posts full of links to Elections Canada/Elections Ontario, but it's so much harder to do that for American elections. Which of course is also why it's more necessary to do that for American elections *facepalm*. But this year I am not actually employed by any election organization, and maybe that will help me let myself off the hook. Here's 2018's, and apparently Stephen Colbert or someone is doing state-by-state videos?
violsva: A cartoon of a grey cat happily scribbling in a book (writing cat)
Purse notebook
Writing notebook (also in purse)
To-do notebook (on desk)
Craft projects notebook
Emotions notebook (this is a new one)
Art notebook
Bathtub writing notebook
School planner
Various class notebooks
violsva: Mulan squinting at a bowl of food (morning Mulan)
The thing is, when I entered this living situation I knew it would be bad for my mental health. I did it anyway because I had very few alternatives and they were not necessarily better, but I set up ways to ameliorate it and deal with it.

And they were working. It actually worked really well. I was doing fine for six months, and then in February Mom was in Florida and I had a great month of not needing to put that much effort into dealing with it. Then at the beginning of March I was a little off balance because I went from that to an excellent weekend with my sister and Pixies and then I suddenly came back to here again. But I could have managed it and got back onto a level baseline. I was trying.

And now most of my coping mechanisms are suddenly unavailable.

I could sit down and think up more ways and set up a schedule, but I am back to not trusting my ability to follow a schedule. That kind of specific, deliberate deciding on coping mechanisms works better when I have a baseline of decent mental health to start from.

And what this mostly is is lack of options. Part of what helped last fall was the variety of different spaces I had access to. It's still not much above freezing most days, and soon it's going to be raining a lot. There is nowhere else indoors to go. And mental distance just is not as effective as physical distance.
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So.

My college is switching to online classes, except they haven't done this before in the middle of a semester and also half of my classes have really important lab components which can't be done from home. They're saying the semester will end when scheduled; I kind of doubt that. They're supposed to have figured out how this works by Monday, and until then I get to review and be anxious.

All of my work's clients are cancelling their inventory counts, obviously. I am not seriously financially affected by this.

My 79-year-old father decided to fly to Texas last weekend. He's back now where we have free healthcare and my stepmother is in an AirBnB so that's resolved, ish, but wow, Monday night was not fun.

Unfortunately being stuck at home with my mother all day is not ideal for my mental health, but ... there's nowhere else to go and if there was I'd have to go on public transit. And it's still too cold to spend much time writing in parks. But I'm generally doing okay. Lots of knitting.

The problem with saying "use the time to write!" is that this is a major disruption of routine, with bonus anxiety, which does not actually lend itself to increased creativity. I don't have that much focus for reading, either, including my DW list, which come to think of it is probably a warning sign (so, now I know). There has nevertheless been some writing. Kate Bornstein is a treasure.

I am sort of doing more on twitter, but I would not really recommend going on twitter if you don't want ALL CURRENT EVENTS ALL THE TIME.

Recommendations for podcasts accepted, no horror or true crime, without frequent interviews or changing guests every episode. Basically I want to listen to a small fixed group of people talking about things they are interested in that will not give me nightmares. Examples are Jay and Miles XPlain the XMen, Lingthusiasm, and usually Sawbones.
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So [personal profile] watersword does daily gratitudes. And I generally do not but at the moment I have a while to wait in an empty bus station, so.

1. [personal profile] consultingpiskies
2. Free TTC wifi
3. Past!me bought mozzarella so when I get home I can have slightly dressed-up freezer pizza
4. Library ebooks
5. Libraries in general
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Okay, Christmas was good in the "too busy to actually post about it" kind of way. Mostly because I had Pixies for two weeks and <3<3<3. I technically had time for a yearly wrap-up post on the first, but I would have had to do it on my phone, so no. I got in Saturday night and spent most of yesterday knitting and catching up on Dreamwidth, because the next while is going to be busy.

I start class tomorrow. I was not actually intending to start college in January. I was intending to start in May, and then they were like "you can still sign up for January!" and I was like "...okay." (Not doing Yuletide this year was a very good idea. Oof.) So that's happening. In a month or so I will have a better idea of how this is going to work and whether I will have any writing time.

(Also, I am keeping an eye on my spelling but I am rather drunk at the moment, because warehouse shift today. So.)

The problem with thinking about writing at work is that if I figure out how to finish a chapter I don't want to have to count another box of brand name hoodies, I want to go home and finish the chapter. Oh well.

In the last couple weeks I finished This Is How You Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone, which is spectacular and amazing and omg, the language, omg. And also Proper English by K. J. Charles (normally I can't get into her books, but this one worked, so maybe they just start slow for me. Or maybe I like lesbians better.) (also [personal profile] breathedout if you ever feel the need for a light romance/murder mystery, this one is set at a hilariously terrible house party and I feel you will appreciate that) and Hither Page by Cat Sebastian, who I usually mostly like and did here as well. I am all for this thing where queer romance authors are doing Agatha Christie, that is great and can keep going forever.

Who knows if I will have reading time in the near future, but I do have You Look Like a Thing and I Love You: How Artificial Intelligence Works and Why It's Making the World a Weirder Place by Janelle Shane, which looks good.

What else? I have a new piercing (because the one Pixies got me several years ago grew into the one next to it, so I needed to get it redone), yay new piercing!

Onwards!
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So my MFDE fic was Plans, which is Peggy/Dottie dubcon smut, and which was lots of fun. There was a lot of building and tearing apart and reassembling in the editing process, which was pretty neat in this form but oh god, how do people do that for longer works? It would take years.

I was working on something for this prompt and I was really really close to having a scene I could post independently (because of course the thing grew a plot) and then RL whacked me upside the head. I knew this week was going to be busy but, oof.

So now I have yet another half-done historical AU sitting around waiting for me to get a more settled schedule. However, there is actual writing happening again now which is pretty great.

[personal profile] consultingpiskies was here, which was great, and now she has just left, which is extremely not great.

I have Elections Canada training this afternoon and then work this evening and then more work tomorrow morning in feckin' Markham. Also I think I am coming down with a cold. But it could be worse, I could have come down with it last Friday.
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So my medium-term plan is to go to college to become an electrical technician (we're calling this Project Tesla). In order to do this I need to take grade 12 math, since I skipped it the first time round because it was optional and I was really into literature and also for reasons we won't go into I missed a lot of junior high math so I didn't have the necessary background to do well in math in high school.

I started doing that in an online course last week. I was worried about this because I do not trust my ability to self-motivate, but so far I've done at least an hour of math every single day for over a week now.

And earlier today I had a lot of free-floating anxiety and then I went, "Okay, I'm going to do my math homework." And I did. And then I felt better.

It's reasonable: I focused on something specific with no emotions attached for a fixed length of time--but it's so far from what I expect of myself.

And Mom's in Italy right now and I have been calmly cooking and doing the laundry and picking up the mail and so on. While working and also seeing people. For that matter, I have a medium-term life plan right now.

It's not perfect--the next two weeks are going to be busy and work keeps changing my schedule on me and it's concerning. But I can look at the pros and cons of, say, going to the climate protest tomorrow morning, and be reasonably confident in what effect it will have on me and that I can deal with that effect.

This is because I am properly medicated and had useful therapy earlier this year. But it's so weird.
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Have I mentioned I hate roller blinds? I hate them SO MUCH. I'm not a huge fan of any blinds, but off-white plastic roller blinds are one of the worst interior decorating ideas anyone has yet come up with. If you hate the view outside your windows so much that you want to replace it with an utterly featureless blank, move. The only reason to have roller blinds is if you need actual blackout conditions. Otherwise cover your windows with LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE.

Ahem. Sorry, I've been living in my mother's house for a month now, this has been building up.
violsva: Geoffrey Tennant from Slings and Arrows, offering a skull (have a skull)
"Oh God," muttered Ford, slumped against a bulkhead and started to count to ten. He was desperately worried that one day sentient life forms would forget how to do this. Only by counting could humans demonstrate their independence of computers.
...
Ford carried on counting quietly. This is about the most aggressive thing you can do to a computer, the equivalent of going up to a human being and saying "Blood ... blood ... blood ... blood ..."
--Douglas Adams, The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
violsva: A graffiti white maple leaf surrounding the words Toronto Maple Waffles (toronto maple waffles)
So [personal profile] consultingpiskies and I have been having financial/employment difficulties and we are moving. She is going back to her parents' and I am going back to my mother's in Toronto. (We are not breaking up, as I have had to explain to all of my relatives (though none of hers). My god the relationship escalator model is pervasive.)

This is not ideal. But I will be in Toronto and in a generally more comfortable milieu.

I am also planning on going to college to study electronics next year, for which I would have moved back to Ontario anyway, so. (Obviously my background level of stress is pretty high at the moment, so I am not really capable of summoning tonal enthusiasm even though I am actually looking forward to that.)

So much packing.

Jean Claude is coming to Toronto with me and we have put his collar on him so he gets used to it, and he is jingling disgruntledly around the apartment.
violsva: A graffiti white maple leaf surrounding the words Toronto Maple Waffles (toronto maple waffles)
Kettle: *boils*
Vi: *enters kitchen*
Jean Claude: Human! Do you know what time it is?
Vi: It is 3:58.
Vi: *makes tea*
Jean Claude: ...and what happens at 3:58?
Vi: Nothing. Nothing in your fuzzy little life has ever happened at 3:58.
Jean Claude: It is TIME TO FEED THE CAT, HUMAN.
Vi: *takes tea away to [personal profile] consultingpiskies*
Jean Claude: No! Wrong direction!
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The magic in that country was so thick and tenacious that it settled over the land like chalk-dust and over floors and shelves like slightly sticky plaster-dust. (Housecleaners in that country earned unusually good wages.) If you lived in that country, you had to de-scale your kettle of its encrustation of magic at least once a week, because if you didn't, you might find yourself pouring hissing snakes or pond slime into your teapot instead of water. (It didn't have to be anything scary or unpleasant, like snakes or slime, especially in a cheerful household--magic tended to reflect the atmosphere of the place in which it found itself--but if you want a cup of tea, a cup of lavender-and-gold pansies or ivory thimbles is unsatisfactory. And while the pansies--put dry in a vase--would probably last a day, looking like ordinary pansies, before they went greyish-dun and collapsed into magic dust, something like an ivory thimble would begin to smudge and crumble as soon as you picked it up.)

The best way to do it was to have a fairy as a member of your household, because she (it was usually a she) could lay a finger on the kettle just as it came to a boil (absentminded fairies could often be recognized by a pad of scar-tissue on the finger they favoured for kettle-cleaning) and murmur a few counter-magical words. There would be a tiny inaudible thock, like a seed-pod bursting, and the water would stay water for another week or (maybe) ten days.
--Robin McKinley, Spindle's End

I am posting this for two reasons: 1, it is one of my favourite book-beginnings ever, and 2, my mother got us a new electric kettle for Christmas and, unlike the old one, it is made of metal, and I apparently still have not gotten used to this.

Worst Cat

Feb. 1st, 2019 05:10 pm
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RTSPI: It is Shitpost February, or alternatively
Stuff you love

The cat has taken to sitting on my laptop, usually but not always when I've left the apartment; this is objectionable but understandable given that it radiates heat. However, this results in him hitting the keys. And the mouse buttons.

Typing would be fine. I remember to close Scrivener when I leave, he can't do anything drastic. But in January Pixies and I went to see Spider-Verse (liked it well enough but it made me desperately crave a Cindy Moon movie) and we came home to find that Jean Claude, apparently objecting to Old City Hall, had changed my desktop background. (He won: the photo was stored weirdly so it wouldn't let me just change it back, so out of laziness I've kept it on the landscape he picked.)

Today he opened a Notepad file on my desktop with a draft exchange signup from several years ago. Do you want me to write more Holmesfic, cat? Is that it?

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